Depression 2

[Mattdecay]

Since Inky's thread is now a journal, I started another one for myself.

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Anyone think it's possible to be depressed without showing any physical manifestations? e.g.-Changing the way you interact with others.

I'll talk about my own situation (If anyone's interested) after a few people answer the first question.

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[MAC]

I have to sort out my opinion on this matter.
I'll get to that later.
As for depression without manifestation.
If you are depressed but don't act depressed then the only person who can say you are "depressed" is you.
And self-diagnosis of what you believe to be a mental disorder is like convicting yourself of murder and sending yourself to the electric chair.
You never get a fair trial.
Do not confuse being your own worst critic with being psycologically unbalanced.
I see an unhealty trend in people today to accept bad habits and personality flaws without understanding that self-awareness of your flaws is how you form a healty attitude.


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[Lady Sianna]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Do not confuse being your own worst critic with being psycologically unbalanced.
I see an unhealty trend in people today to accept bad habits and personality flaws without understanding that self-awareness of your flaws is how you form a healty attitude.
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<FONT COLOR="purple">insightful...

understanding <u>all</u> facets of your self is the key to finding balance within...which of course produces balance without.

depression is a tricky concept for me...i have definitely experienced it...for a period of several months, i bathed regularly in its murky waters. but since then (2 yrs+), i have had moments of sadness, loneliness, melancholy, despair...but they are just that...moments. it passes quickly and i am left unscathed.

i think that depression necessarily manifests itself outwardly, because it seems always to want release...

so, no, i don't think that one can be depressed without there being physical manifestations.</FONT c>

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[Koliedrus]

Notice how quickly you've gotten responses.

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[Buddha's Penis!]

i'm not sure. i went through the same thing as you seem to be, but i can't say it was Depression as opposed to being sad and worried about things.
that said, i do think it's possible to be depressed without showing it. now GO.

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[PB]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by Lady Sianna:
<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>so, no, i don't think that one can be depressed without there being physical manifestations.[/COLOR]

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I agree with Sianna, but also think that there are different levels to this. Mine is medically proven, but before it was diagnosed, i knew i was depressed, just figured it would go away, a major event made me realize that previosly i had only seen the tip of the iceberg! Physical manifestations are different in different people. I have seen different people go through depression, as well as my own.
For Instance:
For me: now looking back there were more physical aspects that i had originally thought. But now .. anxiety attacks, high stress level, low sleep level, patience has gone to hell. all around a more aggressive person. when i am happy i am extremely happy. WHen i am sad, somedays it is all i can do to crawl out of bed. During the sad times, i am plagued by many illnesses, stomach viruses, colds.. basically my immune system just quits working. And i get this really freaky burning sensation in parts of my skull (which really freaks me out, and no dr. yet has been able to tell me why it does it)

one friend of mine: only thing she would do, she didn't get angry, or anything.. she will disappear into her apartment for months, and do nothing except lay in bed, and mainly just cries all day. (this is a bit extreme sometimes)

Some people cut themselves, and inflict other injuries to them selves so that they can feel physical pain that they can touch, and not just mental pain that they can not get rid of.

So see.. there are many different physical manifestations. If you look deeper at your life and you are truely suffering from depression. You will find them! but this too can be like a "horoscope" you can relate something said to something happening. The two can have nothing to do with each other, but we as people twist it to convince ourselves that we do. Best advice..... keep talking here.. maybe see a shrink if you want.. but seek help one way or another, and possibly you can help stop it before it goes any further, and don't end up in positions like the above.

Good Luck!

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[Mattdecay]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by Buddha's Penis!:
i'm not sure. i went through the same thing as you seem to be, but i can't say it was Depression as opposed to being sad and worried about things.
that said, i do think it's possible to be depressed without showing it. now GO.

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That was it. Sad and worried about things. I was right, and "things" turned on my fucking head.

Things will never be the same.

Things introduced me to a new emotion that I always imagined I'd have no use for: rage.

I'd like to be able to happily report to you all that things have been fixed and I'm doing great but that is simply not true. Last night, things got worse. It never ends.

If I've learned anything from all this that I can share with you it's that no matter how much control you believe you have over your life or the things around you, it's not there. Take nothing for granted.

Thanks for the responses.

p.s. If I stop posting here for a while, don't worry/wonder where I am. Things beat the shit out of me and I'm in the hospital. http://www.thehypertribe.net/ubb/smile.gif

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[Skywalker]

i know i went through some rough times in high school... weeks where i'd feel sooo shitty, but i stil went out and partied not letting the sadness make me unsocial...

none of my friends or family ever knew about these long momets of depression... i still represented myself as a happy-go-lucky guy... but sometimes i'd be driving in a car with my buds and would just stare out the window day dreaming about shit, and someone would ask me "is something wrong?" ...

i would just say "no"...

i thought i was depressed, but reading stuff like theMAC's and others makes me think if i really was, or just figuring things out...
i'm doing pretty descent now. i still get sad sometimes, but everyone gets down once in a while... right?

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[Escape Artist]

<BLOCKQUOTE><HR>Originally posted by Mattdecay:
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If I've learned anything from all this that I can share with you it's that no matter how much control you believe you have over your life or the things around you, it's not there. Take nothing for granted.
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You may not have full control over outside forces; but you have total control over one thing: how you react to them.